by: MuMu

用一架钢琴的时间做了一个年轻的尝试，漫漫一程有大家一起也不觉太艰难，最后却还是拍脑袋做了决定，sun说我们还年轻所以没关系。是啊，我们还年轻，有很多机会，很多选择…可是我总觉得自己像是被咬了一口的苹果，无声无息的溃烂下去。

还有爸妈，很抱歉给你们增添了那么多烦恼，我太年轻还不太懂得如何辨别判断，但却已然超出你们的庇护圈，我要学着对自己负责，要从哪一天起我才能自己做决定，要从哪一天起我才能不在意谁的否定，要从哪一天起我才有自己的道理…

我更加怀念曾经喧嚣的岁月，跟innoers一起几近为所欲为，创新是我们的乐土。我们做各种各样奇怪有趣的东西，一起应付各种纷乱的杂事，谈论形形色色的人和事，开创byr的circuit像过家家(站务看到要扁我了-_-!)…龙文说，徐硕斌云黄晴孙乐q#在这样的故事里，每个人都可以是主角

有时候会后悔出来。留下，可以跟云一起调板板每周跑回创新放片子去q家吃小龟做的饭跟万去西站阿福的排练室里长长眼…但是我却出来了，我总是这样，所以总是没有归属感。越长大越发感觉没有什么地方是我的，shh不是，jn也不是，从小待过的每个地方，总有很多地方我没去过，从小到大接触到的圈子，总有很多事情我不知道。04innoers是我的圈子我的地方，但是我却出来了，或许我真的应该在一个地方待的时间久一些，或许这架钢琴的时间并不是像我之前想象的那样白白浪费掉，我喜欢大家在一起，我应该多花时间跟大家在一起。

AI-generated translation.

I spent a piano’s worth of time on a youthful attempt. The road was long, but with everyone together it never felt unbearably hard. In the end, though, I still made a snap decision. Sun said that we were still young, so it was okay. Yes, we are still young, with many chances and many choices… But I always feel like an apple with a bite taken out of it, rotting away silently.

And to Mom and Dad too: I’m sorry for bringing you so much worry. I’m still too young and still don’t really know how to judge and tell things apart, yet I have already stepped beyond the circle of your protection. I have to learn to take responsibility for myself. From what day on will I be able to make my own decisions? From what day on will I stop caring about other people’s disapproval? From what day on will I finally have reasons of my own…

I miss even more the noisy days we used to have, when I was with the innoers and we could almost do whatever we pleased. Innovation was our paradise. We made all kinds of strange and interesting things together, dealt with all sorts of messy trivial matters together, talked about all sorts of people and events, and started BYR’s circuit board like it was child’s play (if the site admins see this they’ll probably beat me up -_-!)… Longwen said that in a story like this, Xu, Shuo, Bin, Yun, Huang Qing, Sun, Le, q#—everyone could be the main character.

Sometimes I regret leaving. If I had stayed, I could have tuned boards with Yun, run back to Innovation every week to show films, gone to Q’s place to eat Xiao Gui’s cooking, and gone with Wan to A Fu’s rehearsal room at West Station to broaden my horizons… But I left. I’m always like this, and that’s why I always feel like I don’t belong anywhere. The older I get, the more I feel there is no place that is really mine. shh isn’t, jn isn’t. Every place I stayed in while growing up still has many corners I never visited; every circle I moved through from childhood till now still has many things I never knew. 04innoers was my circle, my place, but I still left it. Maybe I really should stay in one place for longer. Maybe this piano’s worth of time was not wasted as completely as I once imagined. I like being with everyone. I should spend more time being with everyone.