by: MuMu

我不是拉你，只是因为昨天是你的生日而马上你又要离京，于是我大半夜的睡不着开始蒙太奇你。

上周我们又在学苑超市门口重温你为蒋臭臭抢水壶和我为从皓皓偷水壶的故事，看，一直以来我们是多么的乐于助人和富有正义感啊!!!每次班级评优你都讲的那么的激情膨湃，说到最后自己都觉得8班很牛逼，我们还把奖金捐给了地震灾区回忆起来就觉得很自豪；还有你作为啦啦队长每场球赛必带领大家亲临现场呐喊祝威，风雨无阻，为04608五足夺冠立下汗马功劳。。。

我还记得当年昌平第一场雪之后你的大绿围巾，还记得冬天之前我们跑去张自忠路屯袜子和手套，校庆时候你带着大家跑去后海划船我们还把五条船拼在一起，我们抱着实验箱子或者翘掉心理课跑去北门吃麻辣烫，教师节我们一起给陈ge送的“早生贵子”，还有08年夏天我们一起给火星支起来的小地铺，秋天你陪我报道砸坏脚趾然后在燕园里面到处找医院，还有某个冬天的夜晚我跟sgg陪你夜游未名湖我是多么的希望你当时不在场啊，还有夏天快过去的时候你满北京的跑给大家送去美味鲜花饼。。。其实我最怀念的还是熄灯之后黑暗之中和你面对面坐着隔着俩个洗脚盆谈人生谈理想谈未来并且做下一系列现在都想不太起来的重大决定!!!

之前有回狂吐不止，我大呼得了大脑炎了就不用学术不用科研了!结果被Y姐姐动之以情的革命教育了一番，我忽然觉得犯2的时候没有人应和竟是一件如此悲催的事情，于是开始万分想念你。其实你要离开我也没有很伤心，只是一想到下次再跟你传递神马情绪需要先介绍半天背景知识我就很抑郁，我喜欢简单跳跃的表达，你懂的，有没有!!!

我一般是不会想起你的，除非有事要你帮忙，这回也是因为昨天是你的生日而你马上要离京，尽管我并不拉你，但是还是要说“美栅，愿你永远那么高那么瘦那么漂亮”

————囧木写于一个失眠的夜晚。。。

AI-generated translation.

I’m not being melodramatic about you. It’s just that yesterday was your birthday, and now you’re about to leave Beijing again, so in the middle of the night I couldn’t sleep and started making a montage of you in my head.

Last week, in front of the Xueyuan supermarket, we once again relived the story of how you grabbed a water bottle for Jiang Chouchou and how I stole one for Cong Haohao. See? We have always been such helpful people, so full of justice!!! Every time we were evaluating the class, you spoke with so much passion that by the end even you yourself felt Class 8 was incredibly awesome, and we even donated the prize money to the earthquake area—thinking back on it still makes me proud. And then there was you as the cheer captain, leading everyone to show up in person and yell support at every ball game, rain or shine, making a tremendous contribution to 04608’s championship in five-a-side soccer…

I still remember your big green scarf after that first snowfall in Changping. I still remember how, before winter came, we ran to Zhangzizhong Road to stock up on socks and gloves; how during the school anniversary you led everyone to Houhai to row boats and we tied five boats together; how we would carry experiment boxes or skip psychology class and run to the north gate for spicy hotpot; the “may you soon have a noble son” gift we gave Chen ge together on Teachers’ Day; the tiny makeshift floor bed we set up together for Huoxing in the summer of 2008; how in autumn you accompanied me when I hurt my toe while registering and then searched all over Yanyuan for a hospital; and how one winter night sgg and I accompanied you on a night walk around Weiming Lake and how desperately I wished you had not been there at that moment; and how, when summer was almost over, you ran all over Beijing delivering delicious flower cakes to everyone… But what I miss most is still those moments after lights-out, sitting face to face with you in the dark with two foot-washing basins between us, talking about life, ideals, and the future, and making a whole series of major decisions that I can hardly remember now!!!

There was one time before when I couldn’t stop vomiting, and I shouted that if I had encephalitis then I wouldn’t need academics or research anymore! In the end Sister Y gave me a whole emotionally stirring revolutionary education session, and I suddenly realized what a tragic thing it is to be foolish and have no one echo your foolishness back to you. That was when I started missing you terribly. Actually, I’m not that heartbroken that you’re leaving. It’s just that when I think about how next time I want to convey some emotion to you, I’ll first have to explain half the background knowledge, I get really depressed. I like simple, skipping-style expression. You get it, right? Right!!!

Ordinarily I never think of you unless I need your help with something. This time too, it’s only because yesterday was your birthday and you’re about to leave Beijing that I’m writing this. Even though I’m not being sentimental, I still want to say: “Meizha, may you always be that tall, that thin, and that beautiful.”

——Poor Mu, written on a sleepless night…